Anxiety Attacks

I pull the covers over my head

Bring my knees to my chest

And pray

Pray that maybe, just maybe

I will disappear from the world around me

For just long enough

To escape from my own goddamn self

My mind would finally stop screaming

About every failure every mistake every shortcoming

And then it would finally be peaceful

Peaceful enough to pull the covers back down

To get out of bed and turn on the lights

It’s only 7am